End of 2012

Hard to believe that only a few hours left for this 2012.  Welcoming the 2013....hhmmm..I don't know what to expect.  Just live life as usual, you still can't see flying car albeit another seven years to reach 2020.  Perodua and Proton  have to improve a lot and a lot at designing their automobile.  Still no sign of futuristic design or a masterpiece from them.  Memories with Mak during her final year is so priceless.  So many events took place this year.  Full of colors, bright and dark fill in the spaces.  Whatever the number is, life must be carried on, we have to move on.  No matter what the circumstances is,  I will never stop praying to Allah to grant all my wishes and prayers.  Hoping for the best things and good things will come along the way...In shaa Allah..aminnnnn...

Miss Ayah..

I hope I can balik kampung very often to accompany Ayah.  I know he's lonely, how I wish he can stay here in KL but that's impossible because he doesn't belong here.  His soul and mind always fly back to kampung be it wherever he goes *it apply to me as well hehe*.  I know he miss Mak, no words can describe and so do us but there's nothing we can do about it...  Loneliness is part of our life, we just fake it with our smile.    Ayah..let's get on with our live, we surely miss Mak, we can't bring her back but definitely we will go to her one fine day.  Please be strong for your good self and for us.  

It's Thursday!

It's Thursday and I forgot to wear batik *la sangat*..thought it was Tuesday hehehe..  We went to hospital to visit our colleague that gave birth to a cute baby boy.  Again didn't snap a photo as everyone is so uuu...aaaa...eeeiiiii with the baby.  Me..as usual..so-so emotion because I've gone through that phase and already have three of a little human so for me, all babies are the same.  They are the cutest mini human, they sleep all the time and they open their eyes when is needed plus they make sound when the tummy is empty.  I miss Ammar, hope he's coming this weekend or we can all go swimming at makcik's place plus have to bring some food *muahahaha*...makcik house don't provide food when Eiman Danial's hungry-after-swimming.

1st attempt!

First attempt of blogging while boss is on holiday for the whole week until new year...succeed! We've been away *balik kampung* on the weekend and it was so fun.  I'm cleaning my room, mopping the floor and it feels fresh.  We went to a wedding, my best friend's daughter.  Meeting with old friends like a reunion and it was so touched...  The most important part when balik kampung this time is my trellis.  Finally..I managed to do it.  Can't wait to see them grow.  The beans, the tomatoes and the persimmon *kakak planted it* hopefully it works hahaha...  Forgot to snap a photo as all of us busy with the dirty hands and chasing the cats away from the girls.  I'm surely will miss balik kampung a lot this time hehehe miss my kebun...

Long holiday..yeay!!!

Nope!  It's not me!  It's my boss!  He will be going for a long holiday for the first time ever.  Yeay!!!  Everyone in the office is so excited with the good news.  We'll be working with a smiley face for a week until new year..wiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!

I hope I can update my blog every day *or I can watch Astro in boss's room* which is better hahaha...what an epic!

My grown up girl

Imagining how a three years aged girl acted nowadays?  As I recall my long time memories, I have never had those pinkie stuff nor I ask for it from my parents..*sigh* .. Anyway I'm not the kind that fancy those kind of stuff during my childhood golden years hahaha.. I never had a doll, a cooking stuff or the most cliche girl's pet which is teddy bear hehe.. All I have is a toy soldier, guns and story books.  But we do play masak2 by using the natural materials like the coconut shell serve as a cooking pot, a banana leaf serve as a plate but all the moments fill with excitement and lots of fun.  

We can't compare those years and now.  There are things that we have to compromise.  What we can do is just live our life to the fullest and if I could, I want to stop counting the unnecessary numbers *age and anniversary*.  Let's just start counting how many happiness and errr...money that we can create throughout our journey before we saying goodbye to this world.

Kakak's beauty-equipment-cannot-be-touched!!!

Adik with Catty

This scene only happen at kampung when me and daddy is not around *no chance the Catty can sleep like Adik if daddy's there* .  She's unfriend cat but it's hard to  believe this photo, they even share the same dream..I guess hahaha...  but I love it!

To Him we pray

Time is slowly leaving us behind.  It's nearly four months Mak is leaving us.  It happen so fast just like it was yesterday.  The feeling of missing Mak is getting deeper day by day.  Never a second I stop thinking about Mak. I know that sooner or later our parents will leave us behind as death is inevitable.  Death is the natural culmination of every embodied being so each one of us will face death.  I'm not afraid of death but what I'm afraid is will I bring enough good deeds,  everything I do in my lifetime will be counted and even we get the leaking questions when we're still alive, I don't know if I can answer all the questions properly.  I'm praying so hard to Allah so that my family and I, parents and siblings and all my Muslim's brothers and sisters will be treated warmly and full of love from the Merciful Allah s.w.t  in the life after.

Am I fat?

My weight never exceed 54kg during normal condition nowadays.  The highest it can goes is 68kg, it was during my pregnancy. After delivery, the number goes back to 45kg again. The latest me weighs about 52kg which is still below BMI, the perfect would be 55kg as my height is about 154m.  But still I think I'm fat, is it due to some cellidontlike that hang at my thighs *not so much but still it become an eyesore*.  I'm blessed with the high metabolism rate so all the food that I consume quickly become energy *an understandable explaination about metabolism hehe*.  Some people say I'm kurus cikeding but I strongly believe I look fat!!!!!

T.G.I.F

Shark Socks

Since Eiman Danial started schooling, we have bought about 10 pairs of black socks.  Me and daddy is in a big wonder, deeply thinking where did he put all his socks after come back from school.  So tired of keep repeating the same preaches every day and every time he lose it!!!  As usual..he never admit for dislocating all his socks.  Aaarrrggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!  As he loves Shark a lot, I think we should get this kinda socks *Mama also want it hehehe*... Maybe by this way, he will take a good care of it.

A cuppa..

When I enter the kitchen as soon as I get home from work every day, my mind will directly goes to gotta-have-this-done-first......*standing ovation position please*.......my Nescafe *wink*wink*.

Home's version::)

Office's version::)

and my happy hour )))))

A Finger Pulling Tread...

I keep on thinking and thinking and thinking and really need a strength to do it!  The last time I did it was nearly two months ago and now my eyebushes is bushy again hahaha...  Frankly speaking..treading is hurt but the result is amazing but IT HURTSSS!!!!  Mr Daddy keep on reminding me "please Mama, go and get that eyebrow's ritual..I don't know what it's call but go and get it done"  hahaha I will and please dukung me to that treader *it hurtssssss* ..

Making his day

Well...every morning would be a look-down-face for Eiman Danial.  Sometimes I would try making a joke so that he can laugh all the way to school.  Yesterday I've got an MC for my asthmatic so after seeing the doctor, we went to pick him up at school.  While daddy is waiting for Eiman Danial at the canteen, I suddenly saw this handsome young man standing at the school's porch, seriously waiting for the his father..I guess. 

After a while when Eiman Danial's in the car, I asked him to take a look at this handsome young man, he said "hey mama, that's my best buddy Umar Ma'an.  Of course he's a handsome boy".  Okay..so this morning, before he dropped me I asked him to send my regards to Umar Ma'an and tell him that "my mama said you're a hansome young man" he's launging out loud so I told him "see..I can make your day, isn't?  Need some efforts to put the smile on the face, right?

Kid's Journal

Eiman Danial's homework for this one-week's break is writing a journal.  He's struggling hard to write down what he's been up to for the whole week.  The most interesting events that occured - .... Abang Pol's wedding and a trip to Temerloh *of course we never been there before* hahaha...

As his handwriting always get a complaint from his Room Teacher,  I was thinking to get him to write with free mind and volunteerily to do it as he can't be pushed to do something or else it end up NIL!  I found this as I was googling and might try it out to make him write nicely and hopefully we manage to do it every day.  It's not the normal journal that we use to see, as kids always love somethings different, this kind of journal might boost his spirit to write *pray so hard*..

Being a Nanny hehe..

As far as I remember..I've never taken care of a baby even I have three precious in the houz.  It's the Mak's job since they were born.   They came back to me when they're almost a todd hehehe..I miss Mak for that *watery eyes*..ok enough with that!  So..having Ammar with me for not-almost-complete-two days...make me realise it's not an easy job to do, but Mak never complain for taking care of my three precious last time..again *watery eyes* aaarrggghhhh can't start talking about Mak...

I enjoy the moment even it's full of lenguh2 hahahaha, Ammar is no ordinary baby because he's full of weight, muscles and cries.  All of us can hold the weight but not the tantrum.  He loves crying out loud hahaha...  Whatever it is, it's a joyfull moments taking care of Ammar, my 4moins-young nephew, hey! wait a minute!..no picture of me taking care of Ammar!...maybe next time I'll ask Eiman Danial to snap it.  Is there next time makcik??? 

Again!..

After a long and tiring weekend, it strike me again today.  That terrible headache is not going away I guess... What am I going to do with it?  It feels like I'm carrying a big rock on my head, it keep pushing my eyes! *popping eyes* aaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!

Help! I've got terrible headache!!

Since yesterday when I lay down my head, some kind of liquid came throughout my nose and today I've got a terrible headache like my head and my eyes going to be exploded.  I've read some articles and they said maybe it's a sinus headache or I may be dehydrated.  Both are true enough indeed hehehe.. I'm the type that don't drink a lot of plain water.  For the whole day, I realize that I only consume one or two glasses of plain water and the rest is eerrrrrr Nescafe *wink*wink*..  Need some rest...chiaaooowwwww!...

Things that inspired

What are the things that inspired you throughout the day?  Me....I've a lot of things that inspired me along the way.  So many things with so little memory hahaha... Ok..ok..let's just pick one..I like fashion a lot...Yup! I do! I do! I do!..I know the first ever person to condemn this statement is Makcik hahahaha...  She must be saying this.. "You..in fashion?!  You always end up in the same old t-shirt and that skinny jeans whenever I turn up.."  eerrrrr is it??  oowwhhhh whatever..!

Me and Bikjah is planning to add some new colors to the Shawlsfab..Makcik..she's buzy thinking to work on Saturday when the new source of income is taking place soon hehehe..good luck with that.   I'm planning to make it really happen this time, can't wait any longer to fulfill this dream.   We already venturing this line so why not take it to the second cloud, we never know until we're there right?   Come my team!  We work this dream to reality! Stop laughing Makcik!!!

Mak..

Every day without fail, my mind would come accross thinking about to give Mak a call and ask how she's doing then only I realize Mak cannot be contacted anymore only Al-Fatihah every time would make a better link between us.  I know Mak is still alive in our heart, in-fact our soul will forever live but in different world.     The 'miss you' words is always popping in the air.  Mak will be forever missed by us.  I know one fine day, I will meet her again, eternally staying with her..

My entry

Every day before I sign in to my blog, the ideas of what to write is like an evening rain, full like the water inside the Putrajaya's lake, but when I started to press the keyboard, everything's gone leaving my fingers dancing empty...hey ideas! where did all of you go? 

Just like today..leaving me all alone at this 16th level, tapping the alphabets, where the rain and strong wind beating this building like they hate it so much.  I was alone here..looking at the blurry window, all I can see is the non-stop dropping water from above.  The sky is crying I guess..  

Alhamdulillah..I still have a chance to see all this.  I'm glad for this life and whatever is on the way, it's part of Allah plan.  Either I'm dead or alive, the journey will never stop, we are the servant, He is the Master...

Wordless Wednesday

My own Laksa!

I don't care what makcik said about me hahaha..all I know is that I'm proud of myself!  If Mak is around I would call her and tell her that I can make laksa by me, myself and I!!  I'm so sad, Mak couldn't be a judge to rate my laksa.  I'm glad the taste is just like I want it to be.  The feeling is like you just graduated from college hahaha..feel free to stare at the pic hahaha... I'm happy!!

Wordless Wednesday..

Tea Party!

Mr Daddy 's long-lost-friend-36 years ago is eagerly want to meet him.  So, here I am organising a Tea Party for the long-lost-friend-36 years hahaha.  Kinda like it..preparing for the Tea Party.  hhhmmmmm...thinking when is next...

Tearing up my heart!!!

So Wordless............................................

It's nearly a month..

Time is clocking so fast, it's nearly a month I didn't see her, listen to her voice everytime she answer the call, listening to her preeches, smelling the nice ever gulai whenever the Eimans go back kampung.  I remember Eiman Danial is crying out loud last week asking for Tokna's gulai...he's hugging me and cried out loud..I miss Tokna's gulai...my tears is pouring like a rain.. I'm praying so that the memory of Tokna's gulai will be in his mind forever.  Every day  the kids will say they miss Tokna, Tokna always sit here, wathcing the small tv at the kitchen, Tokna like this, Tokna like that..

Everything is about you, Mak.  We miss you all the time.. We can't stop talking about you just like those days..  Al-Fatihah.

It's your day Mak..

This year I dedicated the 28th August to my one and only Mak.  This is the day I see the world, the first smell that I smell is her smell (naturally baby recognize the mother from the smell).  I don't deserve to celebrate this day as she's the one who struggled to bring me out at this date with the help from Allah of course.  Mak..every second, every minute I miss you.  All of the time, your voice, your face, your smile is in my eyes.  Mak, how do I live without you???  Praying so hard that Allah will help to go through all these circumstances..insyaallah..Aminnn

Al-Fatihah.

Finally..on the 21st day of fasting, Mak is leaving us forever.  No words can describe the feeling.  I miss Mak so much, the more I miss her, the more I feel her presence beside me.  I want to hug and hold her hand on hari raya as we always do every year but now it's no more.  Only memories is left.  I'm glad she's smiling with a bright face through her last journey.  I know she's happy.  May Allah place Mak in a beautiful place at Jannah.  Mak..one day we'll meet again and I know you will always be there waiting for us to come..insyallah.. Mak..no worries, our prayers will always be with you every second, every minute, every hour and in every breath.  Al-Fatihah.

Home Alone..

For the first time ever in his life, Eiman Danial is home alone this afternoon.  He refused to follow daddy to pick me up at the office.  Praying he'll be alright, safe and sound.  Maybe he's thinking that watching tv is much more fun than following daddy and fall asleep during the whole journey to Putrajaya.  Even I have to pinch myself all the time while driving home every evening.  One can easily fall asleep as the expressway is like a never ending journey....yawn and yawn and yawn...aarrgghhhh...zzzzzzzz....

Fettuccine

Can't wait to cook this for Iftar (as being famously labelled nowadays) tonight.  Can't wait to get home!!!

Cooking Mama!

To be frank, I love cooking!  Trying to memorise or to be exact, duplicating the way my Mak doing it haha.. Few years back, I never try anything else other than cooking rice, frying the fish or egg and cooking simple dish, but nowadays, guess what?!  Hey! I can bake a cake, cooking asam pedas, grilling a nice chicken and making an awesome macaroni cheese. I may not be a chef de cuisine but I'm a chef de home haha.  Speaking the truth, nothing but the truth..I'm proud of myself!  I finally realise that cooking is not just about a talent but it's how you eager want to do it.  It may not be perfect but make it as a fun experiment.  Even I don't have a skill of cutting onion like a chef, I'm glad every time I cook my onion don't go on a waste hihi...  As Eiman Danial always say when I'm cooking.."mama, your cook is always hot as you" haha..trying so hard to be a gentleman.

One fine day..I will compile all the pictures of my cooking and turning it into a nice and attractive small booklet as a gift for my ??th birthday, insyaAllah..

Calm...

Life need migration.  We never know what Allah has set for us.  We just walk our life but the way in which we have direction only Allah knows.  Our task, must always apply to Him for the way better, trust and blessed.  Marriage, death comes and prosperous  has always been a secret for Him.  May the path we choose is the path that is truly comes from Him.  Aminnnnnn....

Flu and Fever!

Never ending story.  All of us except Eiman Danial has been hugs and kissess by the flu and fever.  Kakak is still coughing and Adik is quite well this morning.  Daddy almost been hit last night and luckily he's doing fine today but me....my nose is blocking and coughing is still around.  Hard to answer the phone as the other party can't understand what I'm trying to say hahaha.. I've been using the nasal spray but nothing's change.  Using a mouth as the alternative way of breathing is what I'm doing right now.

Adik is 2 now!

The youngest among the two girls is two years-old now!  She's getting chubby lately and definitely a good eater.  Munching all the time till asleep.  Hope she will grown up as a good daughter.  Happy Birthday Adik!!! Loving you forever from all of us..

PDL 1001

While driving today, suddenly my mind is driven away to my first red lovely knight, my Satria.  Thinking of how my brother had treated him so wrongly, my heart is crying out loud.  I don't know why I miss him so much at the moment or is it because that cute Mini Cooper with the number 1001 in front of me? Dreaming about the MC in red color.....................

Mak's Day

Nothing much to write about at the moment because my mind's blowing to the one and only..my Mak.  Everything is about her nowadays.  The feeling, the moment, the life with her by my side is something that I cannot put into words.  Everyday is Mak's Day, no specific day for her.  Mak...for you to be strong, I must be stronger than you.  May Allah grant all our prayers...Aminnn...

New wish list!

As a human we never stop dreaming of something new for our life.  My lately craviness is Volvo C30.  Only dreaming of it ok! Just put in the wish list and who knows... but not at the moment when the price of the fuel is still haunting us every time when that thirst signal start blinking.  I really enjoy the pic!

All of us need strenght

I guess all of us in the family need this at the moment.  Praying non-stop for a miracle to happen.  May Allah grant all our prayers for our beloved jewel of the family.  Mak...we forever want you to always be there for us so please stay strong and strong and strong.  I love you forever and nothing compares to it...

Yes, I will InsyaAllah..

Why make it hard?

Never kutuk people ok!

Sometimes it doesn't take long to see something, some scene, some story return back to you.  This some story happened to me.  As a human, we never know what's in front of us, all we can do is keep praying to Allah for what we want in life here and after.  I've never in my life being bad mouth about other people's richness or poorness.  If she's rich then it's good for her and if she's poor then there must be something that she can do to make her life better.  Me..I'm thank full and glad for the life that Allah gave me.  If we feel that we lack of something, we should work hard to get it.  

Envies is good but make it in a right way. Never let your heart feel sick when you see somebody's life is larger than yours. We never know that one fine day, we'll need their help or favour. You realize that what you give you get back but you fail to realize that you might be that person one day. I hope that particular person is learning a lesson in her life. I was the victim of LV hahaha... and I never think about that too much as I have other important things to think of in my life. We live our life once so we better make it to the fullness and the time that we have is so short.

I love this!

Seeing Double!

If it is a t-shirt, I swear I will wear it!

But the thruth is so hurt and unbearable..

I really need this, but where to find it?  I really need help!!!

T.G.I.F

Glowing

Wordless Wednesday :) Glowing Face!!

Alamak terdelete!

I've been wondering today where is my previous post about the birthday gifts for my kids?  Did I delete it when blogging through the iPad?   Where is it?  Hrmmmmm wondering how could it be like that?

Past and Present..

The momentos that suddenly crawling in my mind.  Hard to resist and have to make this as a memoir.  Truly treasure the moments with them.  How I miss them sooo muchosss!

Dedicated this to Makcik, Bangcik, Dik An and me.  Hahahahaha I know you guys never fail to laugh at the memory with KN 2810.

She's with me through sunny and rainy days.  I miss her.  My first love..BEL 7729

Life needs improvement.  Rest in Peace, PDL 1001.

Let's Jazz it up with WMM 3355.  Hope to see you somewhere..

Presenting the present, WWM 983.  Together we swifting the long journey 5 days a week.

Birthdays again..

April is the month where we have double celebrations.  This year we're thinking of combining as it can save time, energy and RM hehe..  Eiman Danial's date is on 20th April and Eiman Zehra's is on 26th April (did I got it right eerrmmmm...)

Still thinking what should be giftven to a 7 year old boy and a 3 year old girl.  Makcik is also wondering...  The motive is none other than to make them happy and happy and happy...  

                                                     

Peace of Friday's Mind..

Life is not as lovely as dream.  We would always want to go to haven but we never know along the way that God has other plans for us.  As human we are planning, which determines everything is God.  From now on, work hard to establish ourselves and the people that we love.  Pathetic self will only make us backward.  Stop looking behind.  Who else will love you if you don't love yourself.  After all, the only one that will always be there for you no matter what is only Allah.  From Him we come, to Him we return.  Who are we to doubt everything that has happened to this temporary life?

We are weak human.  Life lies in the Qada and QadarNya.  All actions and decisions does not come from the abundance of age but of sound mind and faith inside us.  I pray to Him to give me full strenght and never stop hoping and believing in Him.  May Allah be with us, to lead and to guide. Aminnnnn......

Peace in mind forever..

Craviness!

What is the connection between other people's pregnancy with your craviness?  It's a mystery and it haunting us nowadays.  It feels like drooling throat melted when that craviness comes around.  It even worse than your own pregnancy.  Makcik's pregnancy has resulted us in search of desired food.  We even drive around town to look for the place that suggested by friend for that terliur masak lemak cili padi.  Even adik is eating a lot of meat hahaha... When this will stop??? It's mystery....................

iPad 2!

Hooray!!! The waiting has touched it's closing line.  iPad 2 has arrived! The excitement has begun and created a chaotic environment.  Only managed to touch for few seconds and the rest is Eiman Danial!!!  WORDLESS!!!

I'm An Enigma!

 Life is a puzzle and take some times to complete.  There are times that we have to search the missing pieces, rearrange the pieces when it's almost complete and sometimes rearrange all the pieces when it's complete. We never stop puzzling until the end of time.

Office at the dawn..

I'm keeping up with my punch card nowadays hihihi..  I've managed to reach office at a time that auntie makcik is still yawning on her bed.  At a start, I'm kinda pushing to the limit to wake up at 5am but now even on the weekend it feels like have to wake up at 5am.  I really enjoy waking up early, it feels fresh and bless.  A good start to light up your days..

Golden hour

What is life without money..

I don't know about other people but if it's me..I'm dead! I'll be walking dead!  I've read about this interesting story about a retired teacher, she's been living without a penny for years.  She trade every things that she do with food, shelter, books, food etc.  She's lucky because she is alone, her two children is married.

What if i were to make that cut-throat decision? Oh no! How to buy my children's milk, clothes, ultraman toys, dragon ball toys, beyblade.  It worst than a nightmare!  I can put that into consideration if i were alone but not now hahaha.  Who says money can't buy happiness?  It makes you happy and smile to the ears when it comes to  pay-day!  When you're stress, you go for a shopping, shopping needs money right?

Let's target for a billion now as million is not sufficient anymore.  Chaiyok!

Everybody wants everything in the world, please people, don't lie to yourself!