Friday, November 8, 2013

Congratulation Ayah

Dear Ayah,

I'm truly, sincerely happy for you.

Dear Ayah,

Now that you're married, we are still adapting to it.

Dear Ayah,

Glad to see that big smile on your face.

Dear Ayah,

Wishing you a happy life here and in Jannah


Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Happy Birthday to me..

The most person I really want to hug right now is Mak.  Back to 28th August 1975, at this hour, minute and second maybe I'm in Mak's hand, holding me or put me to sleep.  On this date today in the year of 2013, I'm here being myself and still in the middle of a journey that has no end.  Mak is not around anymore, happily living in another world.  Alhamdulillah...Allah let me dream of her last night.  She's happily preparing meals for my small birthday party.  How I wish that is not a dream. I truly miss Mak.


Tuesday, August 27, 2013

When the blues cathcing up with you...

It's been a long way to update the blog...I'm in bluesss...no words to write, no memories to share and no moments to be awaited...

Just me and a daily life to run because of Allah.  I'm just His servant, I'll stay as long as He wants and will go back to Him when the time's come.  As the days flow, I've to be prepared to see Him as we never know when is our time to see Him.  My doa to live happily ever after...Amin...

Thursday, June 27, 2013

Skateboarding!!

Watching those kids moving with skateboard yesterday make me eagerly want to try out this fella.  Back at kampung, eimans and the jasmian always play with it.  They would sit on it and push it down at the front porch.  I've tried it once and thinking about the pain...it's period! hahaha... As the day goes by and having a thought that I must do something that I can be proud of till the day I die, I must do skateboarding! hahahahahahhahaha such a bad joke for a person at my age...(such a negative remark!!!).  One thing for sure..


Wednesday, May 29, 2013

Awning

I recently thinking about awning and how much I love the look.  Just imagine...having a stripe awning in front of my new room at kampung...mmmmmm...aaaahhhhh....lovely... Giggling how charming and chic it will be, I've done some googling job as usual when my master is not around haha.. I just love it!








Wednesday, May 15, 2013

New room

I need a new room! I definitely need a new room as I've lost in a silence battle over my own bedroom haha.. Better left unsaid about how I've lost my room back at kampung, am doing some research  of  a new room at the moment.    Some of the pics that I've managed to google around this morning.  Hopefully the project can start very soon...





Tuesday, May 14, 2013

The coming of Rajab

I welcome Rajab with a doa last Friday.  I pray so hard that I can reach to this year's Ramadan and many more Ramadans..In Sha Allah.. I can still freshly recall Mak's face on that 19th Ramadan last year, big smile, bright face accompanied her final journey.. Al-Fatihah.  I remember she kept asking me what to cook for Hari Raya like she's gonna be there on Hari Raya.  Allah loves her more, He brought her back to Him during Ramadan.. Thank you Allah for lending our Mak, we will always treasure the never ending love from Mak, her lectures, everything about Mak is so priceless..

Thursday, April 25, 2013

Nice mail!

Only today I've managed to retrieve the picture from my iPod after I secretly took my iPod from the girls and   let it stay inside my bag for the whole night.  It was so hard to even touch the iPod because the kids nowadays in control of all the gadgets.  The only thing that save with me is my old Nokia handphone.  Enough for me to make a call and sms..sigh!  The kids never take a look at it, nothing interesting maybe..
I really want to show this picture to makcik hehe..  the cute-I-think packaging to our customer.  Even it took a while to reach her but I'm satisfied..she's happy and I hope she's going to like it.  Aaarrrgggghhhhh! I really want to do this full time but but but....so many buts at the moment and I hate it!!!!  Btw..kakak love it and even asked me to wrap her birthday gift just like the picture.  Thank you kakak.. What about you makcik *wink-wink*???


Friday, April 19, 2013

Only Allah knows..

We seldom see a terrible accident but once we're at it, the feeling is totally different.  I've seen dead people on the road before and yesterday was the one that I'll not forget for the whole of my life.  My heart goes out to the family... The flesh and blood is everywhere on the ground, I've noticed something like a brain or the stomach's cord or anything that used to be sitting in our tummy coming out hanging on the road. My tummy suddenly full with butterflies and my eyes became so round to snap an image. My inner voice kept saying don't look at it but my brain has directed my eyes to sharply look at it.  Enough said about that.  My detective side then busy doing some forensic search on how that incident took place. The placement of the body, the mark of the tyres on the road, the suspect, the vehicle etc all became the objects the we should focused when entering the scene. Hahaha..another side of typical Malaysian.. Anyway..hv to alert my brother  to be extra, extra careful on the road.  May Allah protect us all the time...Aminnnn

Thursday, April 18, 2013

Resetting my mind

The older I become, the harder I have to tame my mind.  The test in our life comes in many ways and faces.  Depends on how we take it. During my younger days, I always take it so hard that I would ask Allah why am I always like this, don't You have any other people that You want to gotcha.. how pity I am to ask that kind of question to my Creator...  Nowadays...as the number grows, I'm learning to take every test that come not so hard nor too light.  I want to enjoy every moment while I'm still alive.  Problems may arise all the time, just let your heart out only to Him, tell Him everything, people will not understand but He will.  Have confident in Him, He has all the solutions that you're looking for.  Friends..not matter how good you'd consider them but not as good as Him, not as close as Him to us.  I've learnt not to trust friends too deep as at the end of the day you'll be bloated with worries..worry about the Gossip Girls drama...  But in Him, it's only you and Him.  Take some time in solat for the heart-out session, He's always there for us, He never forget us, hence it's from Him that we come and to Him we will return.  He will for sure has a cure for every pain that we feel.  Keep the faith!

  

Friday, April 12, 2013

Words from the heart...

Mak...
Never in a minute I stop thinking about you
Every night I'm waiting in my sleep if you
could send me some news from Heaven...
Eagerly I want to know how's life at 
your new place...

Mak...
I did pray so hard for you 
asking Him to let you and Ayah
long live happily ever after...
Now... I did pray so hard for you
asking Him to place you in the 
Heaven together with all the
people that He loves...

Mak...
Living here in the world without you
is clueless, full of misery and mystery
but I always keep the faith 
only Him knows what's the best
for each one of us...

Mak...
No matter how hard I cry
My tears will never bring you back
but one thing for sure
I will come to you on a one fine day
I pray so hard that you will wait for 
me and together
we will walk to the eternity...Heaven
In Sha Allah...

Al-Fatihah...




Sunday, April 7, 2013

Weekend headache!

I've got a headache that's been nagging me the whole weekend! Pffttt... A mountain of clothes are waiting to be folded plus another basket of just-washed-shirts awaiting to be hanged! Uuurrrgggghhhhh!! A never ending story.. Love and hate, no compromise! Plus, I miss my dad!

Monday, March 25, 2013

Patriotic Trip

We had our first Patriotic Trip to the Tugu Negara on a sunny afternoon last three weeks. It was so fun and memorable trip. The kids love it very much and even asking when we can go there again... Here's the sweet moment that we managed to capture. It's not that easy to put the kids in line haha...

Friday, March 22, 2013

Baby..baby..baby how are you?

Every day I keep thinking about my baby....my baby melon hehe... It's been a month now we didn't see each other.  I wonder if she's still alive or drowning in the rain or thirsty under scorching sun.  Whatever it is, I wish her a long live and manage to get through all the unknown possibilities that can happen to her.  She can't protect herself, poor my baby melon...  Dear baby melon, till we meet again soon and take care.  Please keep quiet when those chicks come near you..they are EVIL!!


I hope you can become this big..

Thursday, March 21, 2013

Totally Stranger!!!

Dear Stranger,

I don't know who you are, where you're from, what's your citizenship but please get out of my sight!!!  I don't want to hurt you neither kill you but please..walk away from my nest!!!!!!!  You're not the one that I always see!!! You're scary creepy crawlies!!


Life is a test!

When we have a problems in our daily life, we never know when it will end and how we're going to handle the problems.  Our problems come in a different ways.  Life is not that simple, that is why we need a strong faith inside us.  Keep reaching Allah all the time and ask His favor to lead us through the way.  In Sha Allah..we may find the right path.  I always look back to all my probs and always thinking why it happen to me and why I have to face all the burden things.  Then, by doing some acts of good listening to a pearly words, I realize that Allah knows better, He knows that I can handle it.  There are times that I gladly think that how great Allah created everything, esp. me, a tiny weak human, to overcome a big problems *in my case hehe*.  I'll always pray that Allah will grant all my doa, In Sha Allah..


Monday, March 4, 2013

Plan my work..

I'm fully desired to plan my work whenever I have a plenty of ideas coming in albeit there's a lot of consequences might be in my way during the process of realization all my brilliant ideas.  When it comes to the time of working my plan, there are four small hands willing to help to slow down or better said find some other cheery moment to work my plan.  I really hope that moment will come soon...thank you kids!




The kids, not so long ago..

Thursday, February 21, 2013

My grown up girl..

Suddenly my tears dropped heavily last night.  I miss Mak a lot and how I really wish I can talk to her like we always do during the old days.  There's no red light to stop crying. Then Kakak came approaching me and with the clueless feeling, she also cried out so loud.  Finally, me and her crying together on the sofa.  I asked her what's the purpose of crying.  She said that she's sad to see me cry and she don't want me to die.  It's all up to Allah, I said but I'm praying so hard everyday to let us live longer and that we can see all the Eimans grown up and bla bla bla..., I briefly told her.  She said she understand but what does  make her really sad is that, everytime when she visit Tokna's (my Mak's callname) new house (my Mak's graveyard) Tokna is not talking to her and she can't hear Tokna's voice anymore.  She said she want to see Tokna every time she visit Tokna's new house. Oh dear..slowly you will understand, In sha Allah..  Late last night, again she reminded me not to cry anymore because she can't take it when I'm sad and sick, she's afraid of losing me and even worst die like Tokna.  Kakak..I love you forever..

Now you're not a baby anymore....

Monday, February 18, 2013

V.V.I.P!!

I really hate it when comes about doing confirmation with the so-called VVIP people!!  If they really want to attend your function, they will definitely take a step to make the RVSP.  The number is clearly stated below that invitation card so just dial my number to book your seat or else you just drive thru hehe... The weather is not so clear here so I'm gonna tell my boss I couldn't get their line because of the heavy rain..haha he's not buying that.  It's nearly 5pm now so I'm not going to do over-time job.  I'll wrap it up for today, so tomorrow they can pull out that empty chairs by 11.30am.  It's easy, right?!

Friday, February 15, 2013

Personal Hygiene!!

I secretly got this kind of habit, when I'm in the office's washroom, I will carefully listen of how many peeps washing their hands when they finish doing their business.  None of them did.  The answer is negative!  What is happening to you, people?! Wake up!  Don't you know that you have to wash your hands after your appointment?  What if after that you continue your work, holding papers, pens ect. or touching the fax machine, photocopy machines or shaking hands?  The germs will travel to the whole office.  I'm so sad when it comes to this matter.  It's a simple remedy that all of us can do.  Maybe I have to stick this kind of message inside the washroom after this.


Thursday, February 14, 2013

C.Y.N. 2013

What the h@#$!!!  It's the C.N.Y but the one whose busy doing all the chores for the C.N.Y Open House is us!!  Really hate doing this!!!


Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Watermelon flower

When I went back kampung last weekend,  it came to my surprised to see that my only left watermelon has grown a flower..meaning that it will become a baby melon sooner.  I'm happy and I pray that my baby melon will have a long life and have a chance to grow.  Last time, a few of my beloved human beings trying to be so nice to my melons and they ended up by giving them a short life...poor my melons..  One has survived and I hope it can make it without me.  I forgot to snap a photo but i found this one that resembles my melon's flower at this time.  


Thursday, January 17, 2013

Short Memory Loss

I've completed a planned project when we balik kampung last weekend.  Everything is ready to be brought back to KL and there we go la la la la balik KL after three exciting days at lovely kampung.  Suddenly....I forgot to bring back my project, I realized it when we already reached Alor Setar..uuuuaaaaaaaaa....  After a very tiring and fatigue days...I left behind all the stuffs hahaha what a joke I made to myself.  Sleep deprivation and stress can cause a short memory loss. Can you imagine that I forgot to bring  my handphones to the office for two days??!! What is this??  This is like a 1st degree SML!!!  

Lately I'm not getting enough sleep and I'm awake every hour, sleeping disorder I guess.  I'm so tired during the day and start to yawn at 8.30pm every night.  Is it because the sign of aging...sigh!  I'm not that old nor that young hihihi..ok enough with the increasing numbers! Would like to keep it to only me, myself and I !!

Thursday, January 10, 2013

My brand!

Am I too ambitious or we need to move on?  We already re-stock last week and it's a good start for the new following year.  Now it's almost three years we've started Shawlsfab.  The spirit has been ups and downs.  I always wanted to have our own brand stick on every piece of our material.  I've gone through several websites that offer the service of making the brand's name.  To do all the stuff..I need much time.  Right now all of us are doing it part-timely so there's nothing much to look at and think.  I am so busy at home after office hour.  Busy and noisy! That's the perfect word to describe my after-office scenario.  I want to be a fashion buyer but first I have to buy my time and the other two makciks-makciks's time.  Gals!  I really want to do this by 2013.  Please drop on me that one million money!!!!!


Monday, January 7, 2013

Form 5 Umi Kalthom

What a surprised!!!! An old friend of mine uploaded our form 5UK picture. It was taken in 1992.  It was fun during the school's years.  A priceless memories.  I love being at school.  Full of fun, friends and madness.  Hostel's life and no boys as we're in a girl's school.  We were so close to each other,  one of my best friend will cut my nail on every Monday morning.  I really miss those moments.  I remember..we will stay up late every night just to play signal (using the torchlight) with the boy's hostel not far from ours. I hope my old friends will arrange a reunion one day and we shall all meet again..




Thursday, January 3, 2013

Another year in far away land

I always consider Putrajaya as a far far away land.  The MEX is seems like never ending route *yawning*... So...another year just came in, now it has been almost two and a half years I'm here.  Travelling five days a week is like hhmmmm *yawning* again...can't find the right words yet..  The truth is I don't like it here.  Every Friday's evening is like a @#$%^&^ feeling!!!  The MRR2 is so compact with cars...help! Lemme out of here!!